When you delay gratification for as long as I am attempting to, you have to be keenly aware of your mental state. I am glad that I have studied psychology and philosophy enough that I can see my mind as a subject to be studied and modified rather than a self that must be experienced and embraced. It allows me a required distance and neutrality that enables me to better manage my happiness.
When I find sadness setting in as I sit in a cold truck and wonder if graduation will ever come, I have to usurp control of my mood. – Take solace in the great subjects that I get to spend so much time studying, light a cigarette, appreciate the beauty of the New England winter landscape and imagine the great payoff that will be coming to me shortly down the road.
